Calculated - Mel Afoa

I already calculated you from the start,
knowing that you were on those boys,
who took girls for granted, broke their hearts,
played with their feelings, tore them apart.
I couldn't help it though, falling in love with a player,
you told me i was beautiful, and i took that to my heart,
you kept giving me compliments, and in return i gave you my feelings,
never knowing you were behind the doors tearing each one apart.
I thought we had something, when you always gave me kisses,
you showered me with presents, showed me with dazzling smiles,
i could help but wish to God that we would be together forever,
and make love in a beautiful hotel next to the Eiffel Tower.
You told me you loved me, and your boys just laughed,
but i thought they were jealous; my heart was going wild,
your hugs made me feel wanted, your love made me feel right,
i shouldve listened to my bestie when she said you were a fake lover.
That night we made love, i thought i was in Heaven,
we were in our own world, where lovers went,
i didnt realise whilst i slept after that, you took the video camera,
under from its hiding place, and starting making DVD.
I walked to school two days later, to a school of laughing people,
who looked at me, looked mostly at my body, giggling behind my back.
I walk to my locker, and see a DVD stuck on it, with you and me pictured,
and i knew it was too good to be true.
I play the CD, and it shows our midnight romp, full in detail,
I see they way you keep gazing at the video camera, instead of me,
I see the way my eyes gaze at you with love and desperation,
and they way yours met mine with little affection, little intimacy.
If i could, i would turn back the hands of time, way before this,
and listen to those who told me you were just full of shit.
I would walk all over you, ruin your reputation, your world of glory,
I never knew a guy with sweet kisses and hugs would be that deadly.IslahBecause of you, sitting here, waiting for the laughs and smirks to pass,
is like a never - ending nightmare that follows my every move,
I wish i could hurt you the way you did me.
I would probably cut off your reproductive organ, but that will only get me locked.
I could ruin your life by sleeping with your older brother, but ill probably get knocked up.
I should date one of your friends and then have a romp right in front of you.
I can tell everyone your deepest secrets from the bed, and no girl will sleep with you.
Actually, your not worth it.
　

love,