Robot - Mel Afoa

I just wanted to tell you that I aint your robot,
and that Im not going to be doing your crap anymore.
I am a human, just like you, and I deserve to be treated,
in a manner where peace and prosperity work as one.
Its funny, how I thought you were so superior and cool,
and I yearned to be your friend, your most loyal company,
I betrayed my true friends when I joined your stupid clique,
with the result of more haters and less true friends.
I thought it was awesome, hanging around with you and your clique,
convos with the cool kids, experimenting with the cool boys.
I thought it was a dream come true, how they used to talk to me.
I didnt notice the giggles and snorts when my back was turned.
You always asked me to do stupid things for you, and I stupidly obeyed,
thinking that it would make us closer than we were. I thought wrong.
I used to think the life revolved around the cool kids only, and I was one,
I betrayed my family by going out at night and sleeping with the boys,
drinking with the girls, partying until the sun decided to show.
I didnt know the mess I got into, I was too oblivious to see,
the pain that I was ignoring, haunting my family & friends.
There was only one girl that stayed true, my bestest mate,
who I chose to ignore because of you, even when she was humble,
she had taught me many lessons in life, and I always ignored her,
and yet she was caring enough to put up with me till the end.
You forced me to bring her just so you and the clique can mock her,
and joke around and laugh until unconsciousness knocked on the door.
You used me to get to her, pleaded and said you wanted to 'meet' her,
and so I went in your car to pick her up from where she was staying.
We fought in the car. She could smell alcohol on my breath. Damn Right.
I didnt pay attention. I was too busy downing the vodka down to notice the truck,
and was unaware when the truck collided with your car,
leaving me unconscious and my best friend dead.
I write to you from jail, so I don't know if you'll ever get this on your doorstep,
but just so you know, I aint your robot anymore. I was, but the past has gone.
I lost my life, I lost my soul, I lost the other half of my heart,
so I just wanted to tell you I quit playing your dog, your robot.
Use someone else's life, and get them to sacrifice what they love.
Signed,

JUEKAAH